Friday, March 02, 2012

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I'm not in the mood to do any work.
Woke up today feeling sad and moody.
I felt happy yesterday.

Scrolling through my iTunes to find old songs than will fill me with nostalgia.
You know, those kind of songs that will temporarily transport you back for a bit.

tarantino

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How I wish I had a loving man
Who could give me some joy
Who could give me some fun
How I wish you were fine
It shouldn't hurt you so much
To talk to me

You fill my life with desire
And I have given you so much
Of what you keep under your skin
You fill my life with desire
And I have given you so much
Of that touchless statue in your head
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Chew Clan Jetty

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Entrance of Khoo Kongsi

In-between spaces of Penang.

I really need to learn how to get up early and to stop sleeping.

Thursday, March 01, 2012

fade into darkness

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Light well at Sun Yat Sen house/museum

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St. George Church and its Tempietto

When the small becomes bigger, and the scale is distorted.
There is no such thing as an absolute scale. Everything is relative.

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Penang photos.

No mood to do work, this is bad.

Founder's day today. Fell asleep during the service. My old math teacher remembers me even though I forgot her name.
"To God be the glory, and the best it yet to be."

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

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So timely.
Borrowed five books from the library today and one of them is called Five Houses, Ten Details by Edward R Ford and on the first chapter about abstraction, he talks about contradiction and ambivalence. Such a coincidence.

The moviegoer is about disconnecting from an image of a place and connecting to the reality of a place, and it is about our ambivalence about placement in the world. … is also about our detachment from the world, and this ultimately led back to the question of abstraction. Abstraction for Percy meant this kind of detachment. In a later book, Percy wrote, " Art like science entails a certain abstraction from its subject matter, albeit a different order of abstraction. And the greater the artist, the greater the distance of abstraction.. Writers like Joyce, Faulkner, and Proust are able to write about the marketplace and society only in the degree that they distance themselves from it -- whether by exile, alcohol or withdrawal to a cork-lined room."

Binx wanted to escape from what the architect, on the surface wants to embrace -- a sense of belonging to a place and, by implication, a region. The book is not about the absence of connection to place, rather, it is about an ambivalence about that connection. As strong as the need to locate oneself by geographic association may be, equally strong is the need to do the opposite, to disconnect from place.

Disconnecting oneself to connect. It links to my previous two posts about being away from reality, whilst still being in it. It is like looking through a telescope to study what is inside instead of what is physically far. Instead of emulating what the site is as a response, we contradict it till there's no sense of the site at all. Yet that's the connection. Hmm, it is so hard to put my thoughts into words now. But it made sense to me.

ambivalence

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"while you try to construct your reasoning
remember its not about the black or white
its about all the different shades of grey in between

if you are looking for light
the answer may lie in designing the darkness

contradictions are after all ......human"

So good.
Thanks Wenjun!
Words by Nan Chyuan

Monday, February 27, 2012

I'm about done with 1Q84 and I think it's my favourite book up to date.
I've never felt so drawn to a book before, to the extent that the only thing I want to do all the time is to read it.

The book is affecting me a lot, and in so many ways.
The whole idea about another reality, and how two people can be so connected yet not together. Physically that is. I feel as though every time I read the book, I'm dreaming because it is like an escape away from reality yet that place from reality is so real. Like dreams. Being in another reality yet feeling totally immersed in it. It really reminds me of the dreams I had during my 21 hour slumber.

It is quite cool that I've been to Tokyo so many times that I have actually been to the places in the book. I stayed and bought the book from Hotel Okura where the murder supposedly took place. And Aomame stayed in a flat in Jiyugaoka (a small suburb in Tokyo) which is one of my favourite places in Tokyo. I wish I could stay in Japan.

There was this part where after finishing Air Chrysalis, Tengo felt a passion stirring within him which drove him to write his own novel. His past writings have never been amazing - good but never amazing- because of the lack of this passion, and that made me think a lot about myself. I realised my whole life I have always been good, but never amazing at anything. I pick up things fast but never got anywhere with it. Maybe I need to escape into another reality to find that drive.

missed chances

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So I've been back from Penang for two days but I'm still not ready to blog about it. Maybe after I develop the photos.

Today was a nice day. Dim sum and shopping with Qiquan, dinner with Molly and supper with Gen.
Tomorrow will be another me day. I think I need it.
Clear up some thoughts.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

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Its 2.43am and I should be sleeping since I'll be flying to Penang soon but as usual, packing took hours. I think I overpacked too many clothes which are unsuitable for Penang from the start but oh wells. I will be bringing too many films too but one should always be prepared.

Wanted to do a post about Morphosis but it's too late.
Shall read a few chapters of 1Q84 and sleep by 3am

Monday, February 20, 2012

Amananananaemoneisaa

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Is it amonesia, amanaemoneisa, mistaken for magic?

I had a good me day.
Time to pack for penang now

we were born to die

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Today was a nice day.
I wish everyday will be like that.
Finally watched Restless, and I like it.
It wasn't a mindblowing movie but it is the kind of movie that I like.

Tomorrow will be a me day.
Library, basheer and hopefully shopping before meeting Julie to buy Helsinki tickets.

Sunday, February 19, 2012


I love this on so many levels
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So with akicon submission over, it was 21 hours of sleep for me.
So many vivid dreams, which made me reluctant to get out of bed other than the fact that I had to meet Qiquan at vivo for dim sum.
Church then hanging out in town with Gloria after.
I miss friends like them.
I even miss my archi friends even though its been only two days.